Nurfazzylah Ja'afar 07

2011-07-06T20:01:00.002+08:00

They are a perfect picture of my perfectly imperfect couple

2011-05-20T00:20:00.005+08:00

The irony of friends.....

As I was lying on my bed, the sudden thought about Friendship came to me. Few days back, a friend and I were talking about the whole Friendship thing and how it works.

To me, the only question that is in my mind at that point of time was:

"Is it wrong to feel envious of your own friends? The achievements they've made, the successes they've enjoyed?"

I don't deny I do feel a tinge of envy when I see my friends doing so well. But that's all I'll ever feel. Towards the end, I know they've worked hard to achieve what they did and got so far in the end. I am proud of them. I AM happy for them.

Sometimes, probably it's because of the way I speak, the way I express myself... that it gives out the wrong impressions to my very own bunch of friends. It's because of the way I speak, they feel that I'm bragging, I'm boasting, I'm 'showing off' or whatever. True to myself and all you people out there, that has never been my intention.

All I ever wanted was to share what I know, to share how I feel, to share my happiness, to share my progress, to share my success. But it was never to boast about whatever that I've accomplished. You may not believe me, but boasting or bragging has never been my strongest point.

If wanting to SHARE were wrong, then I don't know how else am I supposed to let out my happiness/joy/sadness etc.

what happened in between? what made all of this come in between us? I am happy for you. But why can't I sense the same thing from every single one of you?

as time goes by, one by one, I face different disappointments. I've tried to look at the brighter side of things. But it is not working. Tell me what else am I supposed to do? I thought just being the person you truly are is the best thing to do. But it isn't working for me. Why?

"Sometimes, I just feel that living without emotions would be the best for everyone. Then there would never be any hatred or misunderstandings between anyone. When that happens, then can we look forward to world peace."

2011-05-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

I'm making this official..

I don't need hundreds of friends to make me happy...

cause I realised that by just having that ONE person who knows you inside out,

& just knows how to make you feel better, then that's all that I need...

you told me that I should be appreciative for having one who is true to you no matter what happens ...

right now, I'm officially appreciative for having you as someone i can describe to be like my "sister-from-another-mother" (:

When I thought I'd be lazing around at home with nothing & no one to hang out with this week,

there you are spending almost all of your time with me, doing almost nothing at all,

yet we don't feel any boredom too...

I really hope this lasts forever, and by forever, i LITERALLY mean come what may....

i'll pray to god everyday... (:

2011-05-06T20:19:00.003+08:00

VROOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..................

Did you know? I had my first practical lesson today!! woooooo!!! It was kinda scary-plus-cool-plus-fun-plus-interesting (: i loved it... one problem though, I'm so tensed and scared of the stupid clutch (boohoo!!!) But I had a superbly nice instructor who will be teaching me for a few times!! phhhewwww!!! worth the extra cost i guess. right now, i'm still thinking of how to coordinate my gear, clutch, accelerator and break at the same time. I'm so bad at multi-tasking please. whatever it is, I can't wait for my next lesson (:

Oh, as much as I think this month is going to be fun for me, I'm in need of alot of 'funding' this month ): another boohoo!! Right now, I need money for:

(It's all about the money, money, money ..... )

More driving lessons (Though mum is sponsoring, the cash is coming in too slowwww!!!)

My holiday with her!!!! (& Mum is supposed to sponsor half of it)

My stupid spoilt iphone repairs!

Renewal of my overdued passport!!!

Handphone bills!

OMG! So you see how much money i will need to get everything I want? If this is the case, my hard-earned money for the month of April (under the freaking hot sun) will all be gone even before May ends!! sobs to the max, can???? Gosh, and to add to that, there's no event this month!! Means no income for me!!!! TSK TSK TSK!!! Money, how to make more money? Lols! I just need them to pay what i want listed above (: then i'll be contented. hehe!!

If i didn't need to chiong my driving, i would have gotten myself a proper FT job man. But nvrm, it will be paid of in at least 5 months time (: hehehe!!! Wish me luck people!!

"The mighty power of Him just makes me smile just now. When he wants something to happen, it will happen when you least expect it. Probably he knows that I'm ready for it, that's why he made it happen (:"

2011-04-25T19:53:00.012+08:00

PLEASE TELL ME WHERE I WENT WRONG CAUSE I NEED 'ME' BACK ...

As much as everyone says that time will heal everything and make things easier, it does - but by a tiny bit. Sometimes i wish i could just fast forward to the future where I'm over this stage and starting anew with my life. I am accepting the facts as they are, but i just don't wish to go through these emotional shits currently.

Getting myself busy was the ideal idea said by all of my friends. But there are 24 hours a day and i can't definitely make myself busy 24/7. just give me a few minutes to myself, and there i go again. an emotional wreck.

as i thought i'd be fine, there'd be a day in the week where things start to go back the way it was. i'm trying, im trying my real hard. i don't know who i can turn to now. i realised everyone has their own sets of problems - so what makes myself any different.

there's one thing that is really tearing me apart on the inside. something that makes me question myself.

"the people i once held dear, the ones who were my pillar of support, joy and happiness, seems to be fading away from me. right now, i'm only left with the one and only friend i could ever count on." knowing this fact makes me feel like a failure in relationships/friendships.

you all may think that i'm being all emotional and stupid. but hey, this is where i express my inner thoughts and feelings. this is the only way for me to let out to the 'world' what i'm feeling on the inside. you can just live your life as it is and why bother reading all this shits in the first place.

2011-04-18T21:34:00.004+08:00

J.U.S.T L.E.A.V.E M.E A.L.O.N.E

You know something, i guess right now i don't need anyone to start entering into

my life or bothering about what i'm thinking and how i'm doing.

just let it be. just let ME be. i've had enough of pretentious attitudes and having

to figure out what's real and what's not. what i need right now is honesty, sincerity and a true friend.

that's all i need. don't go anywhere near unless what you're doing is really because you care.

I've had enough of figuring everything out.

2011-04-15T12:15:00.005+08:00

How I wish ... I could tell you ... How much ...

I am missing you right now ....

2011-04-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

WHY?

For once in my life, i don't need anyone to make the bigger decisions for me. I'm a human too, i have feelings and my own fair share of thinking. what you think may be the right thing for me, may not be the right thing for me. this is why each individual is made to have our own thinkings and mindsets.

i just don't get it why people always do this to me. I may look strong on the outside, but like any other human beings in this world, I break down too. Stop doing this to me. I still wanna be happy and confident with the choices i make - especially choices that will determine my future, who I wanna be and who i wanna be with.

AT THE VERY LEAST, I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.

Hannah Montana Feat. Lilly [lola]- Wherever I go Lyrics

2011-04-11T00:58:00.001+08:00

Through searching for the right songs, I managed to find a few that says all the things that I've wanted to say to my dear friends as we graduate from Polytechnic and moving on to our individual and new chapters of our lives. No matter what happens, memories will always be there with me while I'm finding out who I'm gonna be.

"So I'm moving on, letting go, holding on to tomorrow.. and I've always got the memories while I'm finding out who I'm gonna be.... we might be apart, but I hope you'll always know that you'd be with me, wherever I go...."

There is another song that I'd hope you guys (my dear dear friends out there) to hear as well. Don't hate the singer alright - Just HEAR the song and LISTEN to the lyrics. It's everything I wish to say to you guys out there. I love each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart (: The song is "I'll always remember you - Miley."

2011-04-10T00:50:00.006+08:00

Does things and people eventually fade away as time passes us by?

today got me thinking - does time moving means that people and things we once cherished will move on as well? if this is the case, then i'd rather be stuck in the past.

slowly i realised, friends & people i once loved are slowly drifting away from me. is it that i can never make a good friend for anyone to treasure or is it cause time is just the factor? it really saddens me to see that everything is moving on so fast. it's really too fast that i'm literally stuck in the past. as much as i want to catch up, i guess it's really a huge hill for me to climb.

friends whom i treasure dearly are the friends that i'll keep till i can't no more. and when i start treasuring someone, means i'm giving them my 100% trust. i hope, i just hope that i've picked the right people to trust and cherish.

the choices i've made in life are those i will never regret no matter what happens. right now, i'm learning that it's hard to keep those i love with me forever, as forever is something that can never happen.

with all these emotional posts, i've finally found time for myself and my family now. i'm loving what i'm doing for myself right now and i hope the future will be what i've been seeing myself as. my body clock has been arranged to wake up at 9.30am and i'll head to bed at 1230am. it's really a big jump to what i've always been doing like, sleeping most of my time and waking up at 12pm and having short naps thereafter.

and oh!! i'm beginning to read again!!! Surprised and cool right? READING + FAZZY usually don't match. but right now, READING + FAZZY = THE BEST TIME KILLER EVER.

apart from that, my dearest ally has always been the cutie pie ever. she's been my companion for these past weeks and i'm growing real close to her. i'm finally bathing her in the evening and spending most of my time 'entertaining' her in the morning+afternoon.

life so far has been hard, but i'm getting the hang of it. this is just the start of my life. if i can't survive this, then i think i can never survive adulthood. i'm working for what's best for my future, and i hope this time, the choices i make are the right ones for me (:

i believe i will eventually make it through in the end.

2011-04-06T19:21:00.004+08:00

Writing things down is the only way for me to express my thoughts and feelings

Who was I before I had to face the real problems of being an adult?

I was someone who:

- couldn't care less what i need to do tomorrow

- just take the days as they are and try to be as happy as i can be

- sleep, tv and computer were the things that i need

- hang out only when i feel like it

- the only worry i had was school and money

- had (and still have) friends to make me smile when im down

- all i needed was them to make things better again

- be as cheerful and happy as i can

- independent

- don't feel the need to depend on anyone except my parents

- breaking down infront of anyone is a big no-no

- have my own thinkings and perceptions

- viewed things the way i wanted and no one can change it

- loved myself for who i am (wouldn't change anything about me)

- free and happy

right now, i'm working towards the so-called road of recovery and trying to find my inner-self back. it has been hard with different and strong emotions overcoming each other, making myself confused and emotional.

'FORGIVE'

is the word i learnt today.

to forgive doesn't mean that i'll change.

to forgive doesn't mean anyone will change.

to forgive is to feel empathy and understanding towards them and wish them happiness no matter what happens.

only when i've learnt to completely forgive, both myself and others, will i be able to let go and move on with my life.

2011-04-03T10:48:00.003+08:00

I'm beginning to love the smaller & finer things in life...

2011-03-31T22:47:00.003+08:00

In the process of finding my own identity

As i thought i have become the person i've always wanted to be, i didn't realize i lost the understanding of where i came from. to be what i wanted to be, in one way or another, i found out that i forgot the place i came from and was born in. life was all about me and my happiness that i slowly nieglected the people around me, the people who were there for me from the time i was brought into this world to who i am today.

days of thinking has opened my eyes to the finer things in life that i have missed. the person who i used to be - happy even being around with just family and friends. i took them for granted and never really took the effort to spend quality time with them like i used to.

to be with the person i love, i changed the person who i've always loved - myself. along the way, i realised i wasn't living for myself anymore, but living for the person whom others wanted me to be. i changed to adapt to the changes around me as years passed, and only until now i realized that sub-consciously, i wasn't really happy as i thought i was.

i patted myself on the back for the things that happened to me and was proud of who i've become. but as i gave myself the biggest soul-searching period of my life, i realized i've moved further away from my origin just to be who i am today.

what happened to me recently woke me up to a few things.

i need to be the strong and independent woman i was.

i need to understand the place i come from.

however, with all the things i've just said, i've never regretted any decisions i've made for these few years as they were the years that brought me happiness and in a sense grew me. memories will always be with me and no matter how long it has been, you will always be that special person in my heart. you made me understand the true meaning of love and how it feels to be loved. i'll cherish all the moments we shared, be it good times or bad. if all we want is the good times, then life is not called life anymore.

i gave myself positive possibilities of why you made your final decision and although it might not be true, i'll still think of it that it's cause you love me too much, that's why.

"True love doesn’t have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you"

as the chapter ends for me, i realised that new ones are opening. i'm living my life like how i've promised you and set goals for me to achieve. im becoming that strong and independent woman you first knew me as and i hope you are too.

no matter what happens, no matter what people say, no matter what you think, i just want you to know that:

"You'll always hold that special place in my heart, that no one can replace"

2011-03-18T10:01:00.003+08:00

The End Is Finally Here

So, the days where we will stop working with each other on projects is finally here. Sighs. I don't know why, but after the whole competition yesterday my heart just felt so heavy. I was tired and sleepy but I just couldn't make myself go home and sleep. I wanted to hang out more with you guys and enjoy as god knows when we will have the time for that again.

The competition was a bit of a letdown, and till now i just think that our group could win them hands down. Sighs, prolly the client just wasn't convinced enough with our Marketing Campaign. Oh wells, their loss! Haha, whatever it is, i know that ours was the best! hehe! Well 'Take It", second place isn't so bad after all huh. At least we get some cash money to spend on .... holiday maybe??? hahah!

I had fun with you guys during the wii session and come to think about it, most of the new activities i've learnt came with you guys first. haha! awesome or what. i just hope that though we are each embarking on new journeys to our own lives, we will still be as close as we are now and till forever. Guys (Jem & Xf) Please put in effort to meet us girrrrrllllllllllssss and chill with us too! Pffft. Always so lazy to plan. If possible, I'd love to meet you guys like 3/4 times a month to play some stupid activities and chillout somewhere (:

Sighs!!!! I'm gonna really miss my poly times with you guys though I've always been complaining about how dragging poly was!!!

Till Graduation "Take It"

2011-03-11T16:48:00.002+08:00

TIRED TIRED TIRED

wooooohhhhh. finally, the weekends are here. though school is officially over, i didn't really manage to get a well-deserved rest after exams. work came straight on Monday morning and ever since, I've been up from as early as 6.00 in the morning!! omg. it's really so tiring that I thought i'd never make it till the weekend. after work were either project meetings or other plans that I need to fulfill. well, after this weekend i think i can finally get the rest i totally deserve. tomorrow's work will start as early as 1130 and after that, will be another working event at 6pm till like 11pm?!! gosh!!! and not forgetting, i have work on sunday morning too!! siannnnzzzzzzzz!!!!!!

well, on the brighter side of things, working in the different primary schools did make things fulfilling though. little kids are calling me "Teacher! Teacher!" and asking me to be their teacher!! haha! just hearing them say that is so so fulfilling i guess. this kinda made me interested in being a relief teacher that I signed up for relief teaching in one of the schools!! hehe!!

kids are adorably cute and innocent. i miss those times when problems are not part of my life. sighs. everyone grows up and eventually I did.

pictures are not with me so i guess this will just be another wordy post.

chiaos people! i got my last project to chiong for!!!

2011-03-03T13:01:00.002+08:00

"Baby, did you mean all the words & promises you said to me?"

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

(What are words - Chris Medina)

2011-02-25T22:30:00.003+08:00

We're almost there & I just celebrated my 20th birthday

Time is moving so fast that i can barely catch up....................

after studying today, i went to mum's new cafe only to witness something that made me feel so sad for mummy. I really really wished that there was something that I could actually do to make her less tired and stress over the matter. looking at her face just now, i just felt so helpless. I am here, all grown up, but still there is nothing that i could do for her. all i've been thinking is that, why is life unfair to her, and why can't people just let us have some peace and carry on with our lives. i really wonder. it really saddened me to see her and daddy in that state, but right now, there is totally nothing that i can do. i just hope they will have enough courage and patience to see things through and I hope i can be there to help them once i'm done with poly. i promise that i would try my best to help them, no matter how lazy a person i am. sighs.

on a brighter note, friends celebrated my 20th birthday for me (: though it was a simple one, i guess things went okay for the day. I'm finally 20 and I really need to buck up with life and start doing something proud for myself. I know i've been saying this for the past years, but this time, im really gonna try my utmost best. these are the top three things that i need to get done by this year:

1. pass my driver's ASAP!!!

2. a well-deserved holiday with my buddies

3. Enter SIM

2011-02-12T22:46:00.008+08:00

Poly has officially ended people

3 years passed in a blink of an eye. This may sound so cliche, but this is how I'm feeling about poly right now. I could still rmb the first day of poly and how scared i was, not being able to fit in. and here i am today, having the best of bestfriends and the most awesome of all the awesome boyfriends in the world. If you asked me if i ever regretted entering poly, my answer would be "HELL NO!" without poly, i wouldn't be who i am today and achieve what i've achieved today.

how ironic can it be that, when we were in poly, we just couldnt wait to get our butts home and sleep & on the last and final day of poly, most of us just wanted to hang in school till it's time to go. ahaha! humans are never satisfied with the things around them.

so right now, im proud of myself for graduating from SINGAPORE POLY and proud of my team for getting into the finals for MMIT. on the start of YEAR 3, we told ourselves that we'd get into the finals for that module, and look at where we are now - in the finals for MMIT.

now, i wanna concentrate on my tests and exams before going for my well deserved holiday with my loved ones! i hope that my friends and boyfriend can be there with me on the first overseas trip of my life!! (Pathetic ain't I?!) Well, its okay! I hope that we'll be able to book the tickets for June and head there together!! Please make my dreams come true?? ehehe!!

I'm not ready to start my new chapter of life and head to University. This just makes me realise how old i am! I'm so afraid of losing and forgetting the friends I've made over the years and how we may drift apart due to the distance we will be having (though Singapore is not that big -.-)

Im turning 20 in 6 days' time. But honestly, i don't feel anything for this year's birthday and valentine. idk why. prolly the disappointments in 2010 just makes me scared to have any expectations for this year's special occasions.

Congratulations to all poly graduates. you've made it thus far!

2011-02-01T22:53:00.004+08:00

And it's a wrap, people!

And so, we finally had our final presentation for our Polytechnic days. Never thought that this day would come and here it was, came and ended.

im kinda torn between the feeling of relief and sad about graduating. im so used to having my friends around me, to be there for me when i need them. im so used to working with those friends and hanging out with them after school. im so used to talking nonsense with them and irritating one another. basically, im so used to having you guys around me.

i know this day will eventually come no matter how much i wish time could slow down. sighs. all i can do now is sigh so much that i cant put into words how im really feeling at this moment. everytime i think of graduation, i feel proud of myself, yet i find it hard to have all of this 'race' ending. sighs and double sighs la.

And you! Yes you my precious muddy! haha! what would i ever do without having you with me whenever im angry, sad, disappointed or whatever shits i'd feel. haha! im so used to having you there for me, chasing me no matter how bad my temper was and bearing with all my nonsense. honestly, sometimes i do think what would i ever do without you being there for me during my poly days. haha!

this may sound yucky yucky but well, i guess i should tell you how much i appreciate having a special friend like you in my life though. hehe!! touched right?

no matter how bad my temper was, you never left me alone. no matter how sad i was, you'd call and write me letters to cheer me on. oh maddy, why are you just so nice! haha!

honestly, i hope and wish so hard that we can go to UNI together. though i dont say it to your face everytime we talk about UNI enrolment, but i really hope that we will and can be in the same course and class! ):

but its okay, if we both have the same interest in a particular course, then we shall enter it together. or else, it's okay, just remember not to forget me okay - your MALAY friend (:

well, basically i've said most of the things i've wanted to say.

next, is the acceptance of reality and to start moving on

2011-01-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

What does all of it mean?

Well, i realised that those (my friends or not) who have lower education and standards than what I currently have are still living a wonderful and fun lives as compared to me. This really got me thinking as to whether EDUCATION & QUALIFICATIONS do matter the most.

this post is not meant to bring down anyone - it's just a thought i got while browsing through the lives of people I know, be it someone close or not even close to me.

most of them are of the same age as me, but one common thing they have is the fact that their education and qualifications are just the bare minimal. but still, it looks to me as though they are having much much better lives than me - most of the things that i've been wanting to have or do at least.

be it a car, a vacation or having the ability to afford the things that they want, does all of this really comes that easy? i know it doesnt, but how come at this age, they seem so stable and happy? the thing that makes me (irritated) at times is that fact that some of them are not even O'LEVEL CERT holders. sighs.

or is it cause that at this age, they do not have any burdens to carry or financial worries. hence, they have all the rights and ability to get what they want.

well, all i wanna know is that i hope all the things that i've chosen and been through will pay off in the end. I did not go this far to lag behind those who are not even close in standards with me. arrogance is not what i am, but facts are what im putting through.

2011-01-13T23:08:00.005+08:00

HAPPY PILLS? = TEMPORARY HAPPINESS

there are a lot of things in my mind right now. However, with all my f**ked up attitude, i managed to find the true friends who will be there for me no matter what. They are not my happy pills, but they are the people who pulls me back up when I fall hard.

I'm sorting out my thoughts slowly now and i'm getting somewhere, i know. The reason for this post is simply to vent out my thoughts on what we call 'True Friends' at this time and age.

Getting to know new people is never wrong. But forgetting your friends is a mistake. Have you ever thought of how you would have gotten through your Primary/Secondary/Poly without that different bunches of friends you've once had? Would you have experienced what you did in your different school stages? Would you be able to pull through without the motivation and support of your friends then? During the different stages of your life, you will bump into different group of friends that goes through different stages of your life with you. & this is inevitable. But this doesn't constitute to you moving on so fast, and saying things like you've found your 'Happy Pills' and they are the ones who makes you happy. But what about the times WE made you happy? Weren't we your happy pills then? If we 'were' your happy pills, so that means your current 'happy pills' will be replaced by a new bunch of 'happy pills' when you've moved further on in life?

You gotta feel what we are feeling right now. I'm not being bias cause she's closer to me now or cause she's still in contact with me. But what you've just posted on your FB stating that 'they are not worth to be with me' is just too much. if not for me or her, think of the other people you were once close with. Weren't they good enough to be your friends? Honestly, from how you are handling the situation with the help of your current 'happy pills', makes you seem so immature. Just because they've got your back, you agree with them to criticise us in that manner. How much do they know about your past? Or did they really taste the bitter-sweetness of your life when you were younger? All they know is the story-line, but never the true experience.

I'm so disappointed to hear all this coming from you, and all I can say is, if they are your 'happy pills' and they are the ones who can make you happy, then you are not good enough for me, at least. You've said your piece. & I've said mine. Losing a friend like you is never a loss, cause i know in the end, i've managed to keep better friends like those im having right now.

Thanks for all the memories we used to share. Probably our chapter ends here, but who knows. If we were meant to be good friends till the very end, we will. If not, good luck in whatever you do.

This is specially for you - on behalf of me and my friend.

2011-01-10T20:13:00.003+08:00

Need That Confidence & Motivation Back

the final term is here. however, i just feel that im slacking in whatever ways possible - results, projects, attendance. seriously, i've got no motivation for this final race to poly life. the first project presentation was a huge letdown. somehow somewhat it took away a bit of the confidence i used to have. i know that one setback does not mean anything, and we gotta be strong enough to overcome it and get better. but i guess, from the way the tutor said it, it just made me feel like it was somehow my fault. sighs.

nvrm. let's get on with life now. a few of my fb friends have been enjoying themselves to short getaway times with their friends. mannn, it just got me thinking- "when will it ever be my turn?" will i just have to live through this feeling of just envying my friends & not being to live them? i dont want that. i know i need to get this feeling turned to reality. after all the stress from school, i promise myself that i would go for a short getaway with my own bunch of friends. i want it. no matter what.

im turning 20 soon, and i really need to get something accomplished in my life - pronto. results aren't getting any better and im not proud of myself either. money wise, well.. i can just say that i can support myself better now, but i want more savings for my future. currently, im jobless again. talking about jobless, that incident also made me wonder if im really not good enough for the real world. i didn't ask for such attitude and im really trying to improve myself. im just afraid that i'll never, and can never succeed in becoming what i want. i want to prove those who looked down on me wrong. i am good. i can be good. i know i can (:

right now, things aren't going as well as i wanted 2011 to be. but its okay. for every little things that happen, there may be reasons to it. when all of this is over, i wanna concentrate on finding the right job for me.

2011-01-03T18:19:00.005+08:00

i miss them already

2011-01-01T11:13:00.004+08:00

And its 2011..

how time flies.

all i can say is this year's countdown was great. i managed to spend it with my girls whom i've missed so so so so so much & HIM (:

we spent our 2nd countdown this year. and i want the number to just keep growing and we will try our best to make it happen okay, chicken nose s***?? hehehe!! i love you and thanks for making it happen just for my sake. i hope you enjoyed yourself playing pool with the pro eh! he finally made you go quiet right?! hehehe!!

and to my girls, i love you girls to the freaking max okay?! when we graduate, please have some quality bonding time like yesterday (:

PS: Bello, can we have the pictures fast?! i wanna see our 'lovely' pictures!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

01.01.11

2010-12-25T11:48:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS & SOON A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

gosh, this week has really been totally hectic for me - AND I MEAN IT! work came all of a sudden and i was told to help out for christmas deliveries for 3 days. this meant that i've been waking up at a ghastly 430am in the morning to report for work at 6am!! -.- oh my god!!!! and my 3-day work turned to 5-day work week! that means i've been reporting for work in the early hours of the day from MONDAY-FRIDAY!! SAD LIFE LA SIA! (but i skipped wednesday though. hehe!) i don't know how i survived it though. so practically my 2nd week of holidays are gone just like that. too tired to even head anywhere after work.

tsk to make it more worst, thanks to my sis i gotta continue work at another company till 130am on a CHRISTMAS EVE!!! Just as i reached home to get a nice nap on my last day of work, there she was calling me and asking me to report for work! *shouts* i can't say no cause the person-in-charge has been helping me when i needed to get work shifts!!! sighs.

i've been working too much that i feel i need time to catch up on some things. sighs. but i'm glad that i managed to get small gifts and presents for my lovely friends out there (: at least this year im getting presents (though small ones they are) for them. hehe!! if not, im always a cheapskate! tsk tsk tsk.

2010-12-19T19:31:00.007+08:00

Family Day @ ECP

finally after weeks of not being able to spend quality family time, my parents made the effort to bring us out for fun (:

ROLLER BLADING & BICYCLE!

haha, mummy wanted to learn roller-blading. and i find it cute wanting to learn it at that age. well, at least its a way for each of us to bond.

ALLY WAS JUST SUCH A CUTIE (:

2010-12-18T14:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THE YOUNGEST OF US ALL!!

Woooo!! It's the last birthday for us to celebrate this year before everything starts all over again. Had a nice outing at SENTOSA to have fun under the sun sun sun! Singapore is just too small, and we've run out of ideas where to head for her birthday surprise. Just hope that though it was a small surprise, we've managed to made your day (:

BEACH VOLLEYBALL, THE SEA, THE SAND.

it was great. free unwanted sun-tanning session though ): tsk, i wanna grow fatter really badly though. sobs sobs.

DINNER & CHILLOUT TIME

and so, we headed to BUGIS for our dinner at VINTAGE DELI CAFE & food was ubberly nice! worth your every penny. customer service was excellent! haha!!

talked till it was time to go home! tsk, time passes by really fast when you are enjoying yourselves though.

and, i guess we really got to thank our most dearest 'mummy' for driving us home! haha!! thank you MUDDY!! for being so patient! no worries, next time when we get our licence you will be our priority okay!! hehe!!

i guess you got home only at 2-ish right?

THIS IS THE REASON WHY WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! HAHAHAHAH!!

Gosh. We're gonna have a badminton-tennis-swimming-basketball session again soon!

I SO CAN'T WAIT!

I wanna enjoy before the last race for my polytechnic life begins again!

SIAN!

2010-12-16T00:47:00.005+08:00

When we are so replaceable

Well, it's the holidays and i thought that it'd be a good idea to 'chiong' work so that i'll have more savings by Januray 2011. Looks like this plan of mine is gonna get ruined by them. tsk. after disappearing from work for 2 weeks due to the MSTs, i realised that a number of new girls joined the company. Results - we became so replaceable that they dont't really bother to let us work. how sad is that.

my 3-day work week was cut to 1 day - and when i looked at the schedule, mostly were new names -.- i wonder if these girls are working only for the festive season or longer. hmmmm, seems like i gotta source for new job soon aye.

Well, the reason for my blogging at this unearthly hour is cause of something that happened at work - SOMEONE to make it more clearer.

I didn't realise that a 3 year age gap is actually big enough to see the generation gap. oh my goodness, this girl can just keep blabbering without stopping and not having to drink water. like seriously. it's freakingly 10 in the morning, and there she was blabbering about everything. even thoughts that were supposed to be said IN THE MIND instead of saying it out loud. to make it worst, every single thing that comes out from her mouth, she wouldnt miss this word 'MY BOYFRIEND... ' goodness gracious girl. almost every girl has/has had a boyfriend. what makes you so special as to keep mentioning that word. seriously, if only i can use the f word on her. my patience was really good today, not to mention.

And second issue is that, she is definitely younger than me, we started work almost on the same month. only difference is that she works more times than me in a week. so to say, she knows more stuff than me. but heck, that doesn't give her the rights to order me like a fool. from

"Hey fazzy, could you help me take this" to "Hey fazzy, could you help me throw this"

she even stopped me from trying to call my supervisor regarding customer's order. effing shit. if im allowed to, i'd shout at her effing face and ask her to just f off though.

but sighs. advice from mum and boyfriend kept repeating on my mind - saying that in a working environment, you can't always flare up everytime you are unhappy. so okay, i was really patient enough. i just gave her the WHATEVER face though.

"if given the chance, i would love to tape up her mouth and body so that they wouldn't keep moving so much each minute."

This is the obvious difference between secondary school KIDS and us TEENAGERS. now i understand the difference.

they talk almost about everything without any privacy or respect. all they want is attention from people. but what you are doing is freaking turning people off girl.

GET A LIFE GIRL. no one freaking cares about you and your boyfriend though.

2010-12-04T14:53:00.002+08:00

IT HAS ENDED

It's finally over - our FINAL YEAR PROJECT presentation. we waited 9 months for this day and its finally over. what does this means? it means that time passed by freakingly fast and this also means that we only have 2 months of school (plusminus) before we all graduate and go our separate ways (:

and you know what? this also means that we'll be ending classes earlier!! and this is awesome! we can now plan time to go and play!!! im loving it now.

well, it feels like a big load is finally off right now and all we can do it wait for our results.

THOUGH I COMPLAINED, I ENJOYED WORKING WITH YOU GUYS (:

That's a wrap people

2010-11-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

UNEXPECTED TURN

i didn't imagine things would turn out that way. all i thought was i wanted to use that day as an opportunity to make things better. i don't know what i did wrong or what made things turn out so ugly. as much as i hate it, i just can't make myself do it.

they say that people who are angry often make rash decisions. i think i did. i don't know why things turned out this ugly and why things that i do are always wrong. im confused. though i want to say that it's my fault, but i just don't know what i did wrong, hence i can't admit it.

i don't want to make the wrong decision only to realise that it was a mistake. cause once it's done means that it will never come back. i know that im not ready to make that decision, cause i don't want it no matter what.

please, help me get this through cause im tired of doing this every day. i have alot of things to say, but i don't have the right opportunity.

im not ready to let things go.

2010-11-16T23:16:00.004+08:00

IRRITATING MUCH

sometimes, supervisors and managers can just be so irritating. they think they know everything there is to know, they think that others can't do that same thing better than they can, sometimes they are just more of a hindrance than help.

while i was working today, i realised one thing - that sometimes people of a higher post than us can act ms/mr-know-it-all when they don't. one thing that irritated me the most today and most of the time is the fact that, we've done our job, they don't know about it and assume that we didn't do our job properly. so they start nagging and ordering us what to do. well, some may say that this is part and parcel of working life. but, heck. we are humans too.

this was what happened - a customer came and as usual, i greeted them as i was supposed to and asked what they were looking for. so, their answer was this: "erm, its okay, we will just look around first." so okay, tell me what else was i supposed to do than wait right, while they look through the menu. so the situation was like, i was facing them and waiting and there they are scanning through the menu.

so this ms/mr-know-it-all suddenly spoke up from the back and said "Fazzy, talk to them. Ask them what they want." with that 'so-not-needed' tone -.- so, should i just interrupt their peace and time to think to keep asking and irritating them with what to buy? some customers find it irritating, mind you.

so, just let us work and we know what to do. stop asking us to do this and that if you don't know what we have actually done that you didn't see.

pfffft, working today was pretty much irritating cause someone just thinks she/he knows what to do best. just leave us to work till we really screw things big time, alright.

tsk. irritating much.

2010-11-15T18:33:00.004+08:00

THAT MOMENT IN TIME

today was awfully tiring and i don't know why. i slept in early yesterday but i just couldn't hold on for the 3 hours break for NVP. tsk. so off i went, home.

well, i had a nice sleep though. and somehow somewhat it got me thinking. i had a nice and peaceful dream where nothing else mattered and i felt so problem free. the dream felt like reality and if i could, i would rather stay in that dream as i felt so light and problem-free. my mind was clear and i didn't feel any burden like i would in reality.

when i woke up, all the problems in my life started pouring in again. the feeling is gone. the heavy load came back. and it got me thinking -

wouldn't it be great that we dream, and just continue dreaming till our problems are gone, and wake up in this complicated reality totally new and refreshed?

well, this will never happen, but it's just a thought. if only one could just throw away all the feelings that one hates and only keep those sweet and precious moments in our lives.

im turning 20 in 3 months' time. time really flies. i could still remember the time i spent my 2010 countdown with my precious and special group of people. and now, one year is almost here. and here comes 2011. this would also mean that we only have 5 more months till graduation.

honestly speaking, i feel kinda lost whenever i think about graduation. what will happen to me by then? what will i be doing next?

i feel scared for my own future.

2010-11-08T00:21:00.005+08:00

SCHOOL'S KICKING IN

school has only been opened for 3 weeks and there are alot of things to get done. sighs. here come the busy moments - meaning no time for fun fun fun. tskk.

i'll be collecting my IC tomorrow! like finally!! and then, i can enrol for my driving. haha, kinda regretted not taking it last time, but it's okay. at least now i have a partner who's taking his licence together with me! hehe!!

work has been going on fine - and at least i've been earning bucks rather than bumming at home all day. but one thing is that - i've been working for at least 2 months now and i've haven seen any money coming in!! haha, they are delaying my pay and im getting broke-r and broke-r by the day. haha!!

okay, another great news for me: i'm getting my iphone finally!! if everything goes well, prolly mum will exchange mine with her iphone 4!! so i guess all the patience have finally paid off!!

i'm in a happy mode at the moment (:

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE!

2010-10-18T21:35:00.002+08:00

TIME FOR THE FUTURE

crazily true, i've been thinking about my future and what i wanna do once i graduate -.- one important thing is my financial planning. heheh!! even when im ready for bed, my brain will be thinking on how to make money and strive on my ownn. i love this!! hehe.

work work work - save save save!!! enough money until i so happy can already. and it's all based on my efforts and hardwork. no money from parents no more, all me!! woo hoo!!!

and finally, i'll be starting work training tomorrow at AWFULLY CHOCOLATE. if everything goes smoothly, i'll be as happy as a bee. hmmm, isit 'bee'?? haha! i also dunno, and dun care larh.

and next plan, is to get my licence before 2011 RAYA!! mum gave me like 6 months to get it. and im like -.- please la ma, i do my own timetable & when i want it.

hmmm, next is that - things have really been going smoothly for me this time & i really hope it will continue like this (: mum was so nice in wanting to give me her iphone 4 cause she pitied me, but i didn't have the heart to take it from her. haha! and sis also said that she will be giving me her iphone 3gs if she can upgrade her plan!! woohoo!! im loving all this mannn!!!!

i don't wana be the lazzy fazzy no more!!

i gotta start planning for my own future!!

im turing 20 in 4 months' time!!

BOOHOO!!!

2010-10-13T11:41:00.004+08:00

IF SORRY IS ENOUGH TO MAKE UP FOR IT..

okay, holidays are almost over and school's finally in. well, results were stagnant and it is truly demoralizing to start working hard. i don't understand where i went wrong but heck, just try my best for the last time.

this holiday has been the best so far. i've been earning my own bucks and shopping for things i want. i've got a job in a chocolate store, i hope they call me quick to confirm a training date - cause im seriously pinning my hopes on it, man.

well, i've been thinking - if one word of sorry is strong enough to make the wrong things right all the time, then there shouldn't be any misunderstandings or arguments with anyone. i guess sorry doesn't work all the time and if you ask me what else i want, i don't even know. just for that moment, sorry seems to be just another word that doesn't change anything.

what's worst is that, after saying sorry, you say words that make things worst - so in the first place why bother apologizing? then what you say was just to turn the tables around and make it someone else's fault. i don't understand. right now, i really don't wish to hear your voice or see your face - cause all i know is that it'll make me think of the things you just said to me.

why can't i get angry over the smallest things? why can't i voice out what i'm unhappy with? and when i do, towards the end, it somehow becomes my fault for saying things which are not true. so isn't it better for me to just stay quiet and act happy all the time. i don't understand.

they say that explaining yourself is the best thing to do. but how come when i do that, i just get the feeling that whatever happened was my fault to begin with. man, this is really sucky.

that's it. i just need someplace to vent my thoughts to. right now, though holidays are gonna be over, i wish to have a getaway soon. to get my mind off all the things that's been bothering me.

2010-10-03T23:42:00.004+08:00

IT'S OVER!!

Yeay!! My 3 days work is finally overrr!! And in comes my moo-lahs (: almost gave up today and wanted to give the excuse that i'm having cramps today!! but wth, with crazy working buddies that goes "Hey babe !!!!... " almost all the time and laugh over nothing, why not?!!! haha.

well, in the end it was all worth it. managed to get new friends and easy money too!! and, the venue was at MARINA BAY SANDS! so, why not right?! haha.

so for the three days, all i did was sit infront of the computer all day, registering guests names and going "Hi Sir/Mdm, please register...." imagine, having to do that over and over again for about 600 times. tsk, i guess im gonna get sore throat pretty soon.

but who cares, by the end of the month, i'll get the money i've earned. i can recoup back all my losses for having to pay my stupid 300 bucks bill. BOOHOO ):

if not, i'll have more in my bank to spend! tsk tsk! \

any way, im freaking exhausted now and i think i deserve my beauty sleep nowwww!!! school results will be out tomorrow at 1030. im very very worried i'll have to repeat my GBE module ): please don't let my worst nightmare come true!!!!

NIGHTS PEOPLE!

2010-09-25T23:00:00.006+08:00

LET ME GET SOME THINGS OFF

(BEWARE - THIS IS A FREAKINGLY LONG POST)

okayy, so where shall i start? hmmmm, let's begin from having to live in a neighbourhood someone crazy.

so the thing is, i guess having to live with only animals drove them crazy. early in the morning, they actually accused my mum of 'hit-and-run'. and the funny thing is, i guess they dun understand the meaning of 'hit-and-run'. when being questioned by my sis, one of them actually raised their voice and shouted "MUST SEE ISIT?! MUST SEE ISIT?!" with all his/her uncivilised hand gestures that pretty much shows how uneducated they are.

so, there are 2 funny things about this so called allegation.

THE FIRST IS:

isn't it freaking obvious that for you to accuse someone else of something as big as hit&run, you have to see it with your own eyes? i guess even a primary sch kid knows that. so, probably they were just plain st****. to make things easier, we asked them to call the police and this was their response "you want me to call the police against my own ne********?! you think what?"

erm, isn't it obvious that for you to accuse someone of hit&run, the police have to be involved? so aren't they contradicting themselves? so this is another reason why i said they are crazy and uneducated.. opps, i think if they are crazy, of course they have to be uneducated. how can they even attend school. pfffft.

so in the end, my parents were the one who called in the police. this actually silenced them. cowards.

THE SECOND IS:

To support her so called statement of "MUST SEE ISIT?! MUST SEE ISIT?!" she added in "i was in my room upstairs when i heard the loud bang! so i ran straight down! then i saw your mum already at the guardhouse! you want me to chase with a plate isit?!" lols!! funny ain't she.

so, sis went to check the impact -result was, there were just scratches on it. so, a loud bang of two vehicles = scratches????!!! stupid ain't it?? isn't loud bang supposed to be = a dent (a small one at least?)??? tskk.

so this is what i wanna say. try having to live near someone who just have nothing to do in life due to having only animals as companion each day. believe me, they ARE literally living with animals only!! JUST A COUPLE & PLENTIFUL OF ANIMALS!! hahah!! pathetic life ehh.

actually, i just feel so undignified by their accusation. i feel like something has to be done to make sure that they don't accuse people of things as and when they feel like it.

ANOTHER STORY TO TELL:

and next, my bro brought home friends for hari raya visitation. so there were plentiful motorcycles outside our house - but, it didn't disrupt or take any of their dirty places.

so, i guess she was just too envious or might i say, jealous, that we always have people over our places that she actually threw water down at the motorcycles!! omgggg. tell me, ain't this juvenile.

but when someone called her up from her window, she actually denied and shut the windows. tskkk. come on crazy ******, we ain't dumb or moronic not to tell who actually did that right?? give us some credit larhh.

it's really really funny yet stupid for someone of their age to do against someone of ours. this concludes the reason why i call them crazy. i wonder how long we have to tolerate their nonsense. who know, they may just drop d*** the next day!! hehe!!

PS:

I'M NOT USING MY HP CURRENTLY DUE TO SOME UNFORESEEN CIRCUMSTANCES. SO TALK TO ME ON MSN OR FB OR WHATEVER LARH.

2010-09-23T12:21:00.006+08:00

~ AND SOO, OUR MUDDY TURNED 19 ~

LOOK AT HOW HAPPY SHE WAS!! HEHE! & WE BOUGHT HER THE SAME CAKE AS LAST YEAR!!!

ALL THE TIMES THE 5 OF US HAD AWESOME DAYS OUT TOGETHER!!

Someone was especially thick skinned, asking us to give her a surprise. tskk. she kept waiting and waiting for us to surprise her, but no one did. until she took a step into her house, thinking that would be the end of her birthday celebration. Then all of us came from the back and turned her sad face and voice into shock and happinesss!!!! hhahahah!!! wooooohhhoooo!!!

WE WERE AWESOME! THIS SURPRISE WAS A TOTAL SUCCESS!!!

haha! thanks to who?!!! muahahaha!!

so yeah, in the end we spent the whole day in MUDDY'S house and gave her the great companion during her birthday she could ever ask for!!! hehe. how can we not celebrate your birthday with you, our motherly maddy & my muddy!!! haha!! you know we can't bear to do that to you rightttt.. hahhaha!!

add in some sprays and cheekiness from the guys, the whole thing was a blast (you can say it was larhh.) had some cakes and large pizzas (that was too much for the 5 of us to handle). card games in the middle and lantern, candles, sparkles & block catching with random kids on the block to end it off.

gave maddy the choice to do what she wanted for the night, and all she asked for was a simple sparklers session with us (:

and so, that was the end for the chapter of MUDDY'S FINAL TEEN YEAR with us. new chapters will be opened and more shall be uncovered with the 5 of us.

!!! haha!!

(wth, i know. i'm so bored right now)

sidetrack: i've got my F1 job tomorrow till sunday!! tskk. all the fatigue will be here soon!! tsk tsk. i don't have a clue what i'll be doing in Hilton Hotel tmr.

2010-09-18T14:57:00.003+08:00

OFF HE GOES

"True Friends are those who last a lifetime"

"True Friends are those who are always there when you need them"

"True Friends are those who know how to make you smile when you are down"

and the day for you to fly off is finally here. hope that

yesterday was enough to make you feel good before flying off yeah (:

i wish you all the best in the future and hope to see you again too!!! haha!! Don't suddenly come back with a china girlfriend and act all sweety-sweety infront of me!! i'll be the first to burst into laughter!! haha!!

well, have a safe trip there and enjoy your moments there too!! things happen for a reason and just keep trying if you think its worth it for you!!

ALL THE BEST MR NERRAD!!

Thanks for being a true friend of mine

- Friend -

FAZZY

2010-09-17T14:28:00.005+08:00

CRAZY NIGHT OUT

Ystrdy was a blast for me. finally managed to have an outing with my forever lost friends who always MIA!! haha. we managed to rent a vehicle to fit all 8 of us (: im awesome. i know!! haha.

sad thing was, through yesterday i realised how much i've grown old!! haha!! no more collection and i was kinda shockk. but aftr the 3rd house, it was already expectedddd. lols!! gotta get it in my head tht no more collection for me!!! going 20 next year ehhh!! that means im olldddddd. gosshh.

supposed to bring our partners yesterday. but ella's partner was stuck in NS. sooo, only 3 of the guys managed to tag alonngg. and my boyfie gave it a try too!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH, GONG GONG!!

tiring it was, but thinking back, all the laughters during the journey made the whole thing worth my every minute.

my house was the last and i thought i would more time to talk with them, but they had to leave ):

mann, i really feel time wasn't enough ehh. even before ystrdy could end, i kept thinking of having a next one.. sighssss...

there are more pictures. but i only have ugly pics in my camera!! sorry girls. not that i dun wna upload a complete group photo, but i seriously dun have one! so you girls better upload them soon!!!

i love every bits and pieces of you people!!!

and we finally experienced our first raya together

2010-09-13T00:20:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

3rd day of raya is over. time passes by so fast when the festive season is here. ): i've got exams tomorrow and im really doing overnight studying today. haha.

anyway, visiting has been going great - only that it's really very tiring after all the walking and travelling. high heels is a nightmare but i'm 'training' myself to get used to it. hehe!! IM SO TALL - but i think i love it (:

pictures weren't taken alot. and ally is a cutie as usual too.

2010-08-28T22:49:00.005+08:00

** MY PAST & REFLECTIONS **

I was really free tonight so i decided to take a look back at my past through my blog archive.

Without realising it, I felt that I kinda grew alot this past 2 years. All the complaining about poly life being sucky and all wasn't what i really felt.

after having only 6 months left in poly, i'm starting to miss it instead. i realised i used to complain alot about my life and wished time could pass by as fast as it could. i used to think that poly was draggy and boring and it was a waste of time coming to school.

right now, this moment, i wanna take all of it back. there are ups and downs in life and i have to accept it rather than asking for time to move as fast as possible. without poly, i wouldn't have met the friends that im having right now, the people who are in my life right now.

they made me grow and realise that poly isn't as boring and time-wasting as i thought. i actually loved every single moment of it - bad times and good times. they are the ones that's gonna leave memories for me when i'm out of poly (:

i'm really regretting not cherishing the moments I had. really. right now, i really hope to enjoy every single moments i have with my friends, the people i love.

there are people that i've missed talking to and laughing out loud with. but these are the friends that have moved on with their lives and have more important people to entertain. but it's okay. all i wanna say is that i never regretted knowing any one of you.

oh man, this post is really long. cause i really thought alot after looking through my past posts.

i became independent, open-minded.

i developed self-confidence.

i have friends i can definitely count on no matter what.

i have someone who will always be there for me come what may.

i have finally become someone i've always hoped i could be.

im almost there. if it continues, i wish i could be who i wana be in the future.

it's the 28th August 2010 today.

i wonder in 1 year's time, what would i have achieved. what would i be doing then.

2010-08-27T18:45:00.004+08:00

I'M ALL HAIR-ED UP!!

... these two are the best so far ....

oh man, i want a change in my hairstyle ... AGAIN!!!

and super crazy over her hair - as usual .. cause no matter how hard i try, it seems hard to get it. i want to get it for HARI RAYA THIS YEAR!!!! wooooottttss!!

THE CURLS, THE COLOR, THE LENGTH ... you name it. i want it all ....

*fanatic*
*whatever*

2010-08-27T13:18:00.005+08:00

EXAMS ARE COMING NEAR

okay, i guess almost 3 weeks of fun should be enough for me to slack and head out aimlessly. gosh, fasting month is going quite fast this year (:

once exams are over, it means that my HARI RAYA is here too!! awesome!! im loving it!!!

just a lil update:

NATIONAL DAY WITH THE USUALS WAS THE SMACKDOWN *hehe*

STEP UP 3 WAS AWESOME (: the girl was hot and the guy was freakingly hot!!! *melts*

SPENDING TIME WITH BOYFIE HAS BEEN GG ON PRETTY WELL, AYE?

I WENT MINI SHOPPING TO GET MYSELF SOME STUFF *im addicted to online shopping tho*

BREAK FASTING WITH MY LADIES WAS GREAT GREAT GREAT!! *pool is kinda addictive for me now*

GOSSIP SESSION WITH MY MUDDY YSTRDY (: *lotsa things to catch up on. been sometime since i had a date with her!!*

I FINALLY HAVE TIME FOR MY ALLY BABY! *she's getting too clever and irritating too*

so, this is the time to get serious and start studying!!! time is passing by freaking-ly fast and im left with 6 months of poly life before i graduate!!! oh godddd. how fast have i grown (:

2010-08-11T00:43:00.003+08:00

09.08.2010

AND SENTOSA WAS WHERE WE WENT!!

for the 2nd year in a row, we managed to celebrate NATIONAL DAY together - just the five of us (:

but this time, we changed our picnic spot to SENTOSA!!! fun fun under the sun!!!

i hope that it will continue for as long as we can make it too.

the sun was simply too sunny in the afternoon. but the breeze in the night was just splendid and right (:

built our own 'arena' in the sands to play our game and it ended up with lotsa fun & laughter.

sun-tanned, small talks, monopoly deal, games, dinner.

the best way to spend time with the people closest to you too (:

2010-08-08T16:29:00.002+08:00

WE WERE AWESOME (:

We got the medals as one happy team! haha!

2010-08-06T21:39:00.002+08:00

IT FINALLY ENDS

school's officially out! god knows how long all of us have been waiting for this day to come. how did we ever survive the hectic schedules and deadlines. tsk tsk. and i'm glad that all of this is over. (: so this is the good news.

next good news is:

VAMPIRES CAME IN 2ND FOR THE CAPTAIN'S BALL COMPETITION (:

well, though we weren't the champs, it is still an achievement for all of us yeah??

JEREMY CHONG, JERRY PAN, MADELINE NG, SHERRY TAN, LIEW XIAN FENG, BUKIT CHUA!!!

WE ARE AWESOME EHHH??!!!! HEHE!!

this is the first medal that we got as a TEAM, as a class (: at least something for each of us to remember of during our poly days huhh.....

well, come to think about it, we only have a SEMESTER together before the journey of our poly lives end. hmmm, it's really fast if you think about it. sighs.

well, i guess for now, im really really happy that we won something as a team (:

WE ARE AWESOME (:

NEVER SAY DIE SPIRIT EH?!

PS: PLEASE UPLOAD ANY PICTURES RELATING TO THIS TOO (:

2010-07-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

FINAL RACE TO FREEDOM

everyone's busy at this moment. 2 reports due tomorrow and guess everyone's finally on the rush to get the whole thing done.

this week will put an end to all our misery of projects submission. after this week, we are almost free!!

yes yes. however, i've got 3 presentations next week when everyone is already enjoying their so-called almost freedom (:

but its okay. guess i'll just have more time to prepare some of my stuffs too.

PS: are we too fast or did we miss out certain parts?

2010-07-16T16:36:00.002+08:00

WHEN ONE GETS TIRED OF SOMETHING

i'm supposed to be at work now ): but im damn tired and too cough-y to go work!!! i missed last week's work cause of fever and sore throat. and now, i just don't have the motivation for work. friends are no longer there and i really can't stand working alone. it's so boringgggg!! so, it's till here i guess. i don't feel like working anymore.

projects are piling up and due dates are coming near. so this might be the right time to stop & search for a better work later on. finish up my projects and exams first before anything else.

and on the side note, i miss my friends alot ): ever since the karaoke session, we didn't have the time to catch up anymore ): i really hope to get my life back with friends n 'you' when all of this is done (:

anyway, im so bored i decided to take snapshots with ALLY BABY!! she's so cute (: i just love her(:

2010-06-27T01:07:00.004+08:00

THE BOY WITH THE CROWN

to end off our holidays, we had a mini celebration for one of our noisiest friend ever, MR LXF (:
duped him into having a date with someone and acted like we didn't care one bit. but oh well, how could we forget your birthday right??

so to start it all off, Madd brought to him to Singapore Flyer - all blindfolded. and TA-DA!! didn't expect to see us there did you?? well, hope you enjoyed whatever we had planned for you (:

i think yours is the best one yet, i guess.
but yeah, all of us enjoyed the whole day.

not forgetting, the challenge for him to find 5 caucasian ladies to wish him a happy birthday and give him a birthday hug. didn't expect him to accomplish that - but he did -.-

and after that, brought him over to Manhattan Fish - if im not wrong and gave him another surprise with his secondary school friends. i guess that was really unexpected yeah??

oh wells, i guess that's it for your birthday eh?? happy 19th dude!! (:

on the side note, i got my work at INTERCONTINENTAL!!! i thought i was fired, but i wasnt. pheeewww!! at least i will still have money coming in every two wks - and im loving it.

plus, i gotta skip two of my schooling days for work ): i know it's bad. but this is the first and the last time. haha!

don't wanna waste the opportunity ehh (:

okay, i'm halfway through my report and i guess im done for the night!!

NITEY NIGHTS PEOPLE!!

2010-06-23T18:38:00.006+08:00

TIME'S RUNNING OUT

gvbh

okay, school holidays are gg to be over soon. it's really too short for a holiday - so used to long long holidays.. sighs.. talkng about school, we gotta start on our projects NOOW!!! means, school holidays are somewhat over.

gosh. now that i've stopped working for Intercontinental for awhile, my money is slowly depleting like nobody's business. there are alot of things i need to pay - my bills especially. its totally killing me ): i just hope that i won't go back to square one. i love the past few months that i've finally got my own keeps to spend - rather than asking my parents for money.

im thinking whether to continue working in Intercontinental or find other jobs. i love the fact that people actually appreciate my service there, plus, i get to mingle and see new people from overseas (: an eye-opener for me (: but, we shall see how things go in a few wks from now. i hope i can get my financial situation back on track - being financially independent kinda rocks anw.

SO, IM LOOKING FOR AN OPPORTUNITY THAT WILL CHANGE MY LIFE FOR THE BETTER (:

im 19, i need to start achieving something in life (:

2010-05-28T20:19:00.005+08:00

VESAK DAY

mum and dad suddenly said they wanted to go 'jalan-jalan' today. weird, but i managed to pull myself out of the bed early in the morning to tag along. (:

so first, we head to a place where i dont know what its called and went for a short walk. (: nice.

and in the afternoon, i had an impromptu curling session in my regular salon -.- very very impromptu. blame sis for it. tsk. she said she wanted to bleach her hair, and so i tagged along - but i went to have my curls instead. results wasnt as what i wanted. but i hope it will get better in a few months time (:

IS THERE ANY DIFFERENCE? hehe!

2010-05-28T20:19:00.001+08:00

VESAK DAY

2010-05-22T00:20:00.002+08:00

TIRED OUT

as im doing out my powerpoints for next weeks' presentation, it really got into me.

im really tired this year. its barely a term off year 3 and im really really really tired out. mentally, physically. you name it.

i really am.

is it so hard to ask for cooperation from others. i thought it should be more initiative now. come on. you can do or even give me better than that.

IM TIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDD!!

now i just hope for holidays to come so that i can have my deserved rest from everything.

school or whatever that matters.

i really need some time to think about alot of things that have been happening in my life currently.

2010-05-16T22:46:00.004+08:00

DRESS (:

i finally bought myself a maxi dress!! (it looks almost like that one above.) loves hehe.

been admiring them ever since i don't know when and all i could do was admire and admire them. tsk.

now that my pay just got in, i went to get myself one!! woohoo!!

but i need to find an occasion to start wearing it.

PS: IM STARTING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH THOSE LONG DRESSES, DRESSES or LONG SKIRTS!! hehe!!

2010-05-15T22:13:00.003+08:00

GIVE ME A BEAT, AND I'LL JUMP TO THE RHYTHM

things have actually been going pretty well for me. i guess?

i've managed to be more financially independent, but schooling and working at the same time is just too tiring. probably im not used to it as yet.

i thought of giving myself at least 1 month before quitting, but after what happened yesterday, kinda change my mind. when someone just appreciates your service that much, the feeling is just indescribable. they made my day totally (:

on the side note, im really quite tired actually. my legs are acheing and arms are cramping. it's really tiring. dunno why, but this week is the worst.

probably due to the lack of sleep i got yesterday night. tsk. only managed to get 1.5hours of sleep before heading out at 610 in the morning for my 8am shift. double tskk.

projects have been going on smoothly and i guess they are still manageable as of now.

PS: I HATE DOING SURVEYS ): SOMEBODY HELP ME.

2010-05-06T01:10:00.004+08:00

karaoke session was a total craze.

I DID ENJOY MYSELF TO THE FREAKING MAX!

the only was to vent out all your troubles!!!

hehe!!

ALL THE STUPID 'DANCE MOVES' eh girls?!!!

PARDON US FOR ALL THE STUPID DANCE MOVES WE DID!!

love it to bits!

& i so want more (:

2010-05-04T18:32:00.007+08:00

KARAOKE TIME!

i wna dance like there's no tomorrow!! lols!!

tomorrow's going to be crazy, I HOPE!! girlies and i are going karaoke-ing!! random much, but yeah.

gonna enjoy the whole of tomorrow cause it's rare that everyone is free for an outing, right girls!!! TSK!!

so i gotta rush from school all the way to Somerset before 6pm!! hope i can make it!!!

oh yeah, feedback about my work?

goshh. it's damn tiring, but i guess not bad. cause short hours of work and still you get to mingle around with people (:

one way to improve your PR skills ehh. hehe!!

so, i guess work is kinda alright once i get used to it.

not to mention, i still can't get used to the WINE smell.

tsk. it's so strong.

sighs.

Even without drinking it, i feel dizzy already. lols!!

One random fact:

my supervisor asked me this on my so-called 'training session'

HER: you know what is ***** drink is right? (sorry, cause i can't rmb wht the drink was called)

ME : errr, nope. which one isit?

HER: it's a mixture of vodka n blablablabla. you don't know?!

ME: haha. i don't. sorry. (blur face)

HER: (surprised like nobody's business) YOU DON'T DRINK UH? ..... YOU REALLY DON'T DRINK AT ALL?

ME : haha! no i don't.

HER: THEN DO YOU CLUB?! ....

my stupid blur face again.... (obviously no!!!)

HER: OMG! YOU SERIOUSLY DON'T CLUB AND DRINK? WHY SUCH A NICE GIRL?! YOU REALLY DON'T UH?! WHY?!

haha!! really kinda random, but is it really hard to believe that i don't do either of those? gosh. does my face really say the word that 'I CLUB N DRINK OFTEN'? haha!!

keep giving me the SUPER SHOCK FACE.

TSK.

haha. that's what i wanna share for today's blogging session. teehee.

OH YEAH!

I GOT MY NEW SPECS!!

finally, wearing contacts really tires my eyes out.

FYI, I HATE WEARING CONTACTS!!

THIS IS MY NEW LOVE (:

2010-05-01T12:21:00.004+08:00

WORK

i'm working with her today!! (:

started my work yesterday @ intercontinental hotel (:

well, thanks to the F1 work last year, i got the hang of the whole work

two things though, standing up for hours plus the carrying of trays all the way with heavy-heavy food items ...............

TIRED + CRAMPS

but.. the people were awesomely nice and helpful.

always ever smiling and ever filled with jokes & laughter.

thats wht i was looking for.

but no matter what, school comes first.

if this becomes too much, thenn...

BYEBYE WORK (:

school is still kinda slack. so i guess in 2 weeks to come, it will get worst

SO I'M GETTING MYSELF PREPARED!!!

BYEBYE LOVE!

2010-04-18T18:20:00.006+08:00

TIME TO GET SERIOUS

ATTACHMENT'S OUT & SCHOOL'S IN!!

can't believe that school's reopening tomorrow. well, i guess it's much better than ITP (:

goshh. i feel that i need to get myself a part-time job. I'm freaking 19 already mann. so it's time that i start doing something. LOLS! stop bugging my mummy for money already larh. time to be independent larh fazzylah!!!

HAIIYOOO!!!!!

School's timetable is rather manageable, so i guess rather than wasting my time at home sleeping, i can use it to earn moolahs baby!!!

WOOOTS!!!

OH YAR!

mum has been bugging me to get my licence. (:

so i hope i'll have the commitment to get it by this year?!! hehe!!

TRY MY BEST LARH!!

OKAY!! SO SEE YOU PEOPLE TOMORROW THEN!!

ENJOY YOUR LAST FEW HOURS OF FREEDOM

CHIAOS AMIGOS!!

I WANNA CHANGE ME WARDROBE SLOWLY!!!!!!!!
MUACKS!

2010-04-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

THIS IS SONG IS JUST SO SO NICE (:

PYRAMID - CHARICE FT IYAZ

2010-04-15T20:51:00.004+08:00

FINALLY

the word that i've been wanting to hear ever since 6 weeks ago.

"THE LAST DAY OF ATTACHMENT IS TOMORROW!"

awesome feeling. i think i'd rather be going to school, meet my friends, talk to them, have break with them and share some joy and laughter with them too. that feeling is just incomparable. (:

big boss says that he is going to treat us tomorrow. hmm, so let's hope he meant it alright. hehe.

SO ONE WORD I WANA SHOUT OUT HERE

YEAY!

2010-04-09T22:06:00.005+08:00

IT'S DRAWING NEAR

okay. in a flash, 5 weeks are gone. honestly, i ain't getting the feel of attachment. in fact, it has been getting my eyesight worst :( i hate that. there's no way to avoid looking at the computer for 8 full hours. it totally burns me out.

1 more week left. but i think that it's going to be a freaking dragg, to wake up early and force myself to work. sighs. the misery of working life. hmmm. what will i be working as in the future? i guess i just can't see myself working as yet. CONTINUE STUDYING UNTIL THE END!! he he he!! i guess that will be in my dreams. pfft.

YEAY! on the brighter side of my dull life, a friend and I are working towards our 'project'!! woohoo. i guess we can get it publicised by wednesday the latest?? hehe!! it's a starters for us. so we do look forward to any suggestions to improve on it though. or, cut us some slack. it is our first time. (: be nicer to us please?? hehe!

Now that YEAR 3 is starting pretty soon, i really hope that my life changes for the better, and so do I!! hehe. i want a new and improved mwahh!! ........................JOKING PEOPLE. i love me just the way I am (:

okayy. let's get the new door of opportunity open up for me and my friends. wish us luck people!!

TAKE CARE.

Lotsa Love

Nurfazzylah Binte Ja'afar

2010-04-05T19:28:00.007+08:00

OUR 'PROJECT'

I HAD FUN WITH MY GIRLS :)

I KNOW IT WAS TOUGH, BUT WE MANAGED TO GET IT DONE EH?

HEHE!

SPECIAL THANKS TO HIDD & AISYAH

TO BE ANNOUNCED SOON :)

2010-04-03T13:58:00.006+08:00

GIRLS DAY OUT

okay. finally i can have a proper update. why? cause after weeks of spending time finishing up attachment, we finally had a proper outing together!! awesome. we should do this more often eh girls?

so yeah, good friday. spent it in SENTOSA with casual sight-seeing and VIVO for some catch up session and camwhoring!

the whole day was really tiring, but i guess it was really worth it.

so 2 more weeks of attachment, and we officially have our lives back. (:

2010-03-28T19:04:00.005+08:00

BREAK

PS: i so envy her long legs!!! :((

AND I WANT WAVY HAIR AGAIN TOO!! hehe!!
to heck. i know humans are never satisfied. that's what makes us normal humans aye??

it's been some time since i last updated my blogg. well, been kinda busy and lazy these few weeks.

attachment started off as a bore but gradually i got the hang of waking up early, slacking in the morninng & starting official work after lunch. the most irritating part of it all will be the so-called 'TELEMARKETING'. well, i ain't dumb. i know what's telemarketing & what's cold-calling. so basically, for my whole of 3 weeks, most of my time was spent calling up companies & saying

"Hi, Im calling from ****. Im doing a customer profile update on my companys' behalf. Is it possible for me to get the contact info of the person in charge of ****"

well, i seriously got used to doing this. but the problem is that, im getting sick of doing it. like literally. and i was told that this week, i will be doing survey calling. oh godd. though the people there are nice, but i just think that the job that im doing right now does not click with what i like. office job is not for me - for the moment at least.

on the plus side, me and a couple of my friends are doing up a so-called 'project'. and we are halfway done. =) just need to get the photos ready, and all the other admin stuffs and we are set to launch :)

well, prayers for us yeah friends.

that's all i gotta say for now.
my life is kinda on a repeat mode. so no point updating on a daily basis.

till next time people.

2010-03-07T10:58:00.004+08:00

THE DUMBEST THING HAPPENED TO ME CAUSED I TRIED ACTING SMART

BOOOO!!

SOOOO NOT COOL MANN..

2010-03-04T13:19:00.004+08:00

ITS OVER

*those were one of the days. when i had curly hair, and hidd is still as cute as ever!! woots!*

exams are finally over, and yesterday officially marked the last day of YEAR 2! awesome. so now, we have to work our butts off for ATTACHMENTS and get that A. gosh.

so this means that no holidays this time round. once attachment ends, YEAR 3 begins. and its like hell all over again. oh mannn. just the thought of it kinda sucks ehh.

hmm, a friend of mine and I are planning something over this 'holiday' period. =) something good. if it happens, we'll be SUPER DUPER UBBER HAPPY!! well, but to get it started comes with alot of researches and planning. but, we're willing to go through it if its successful in the future. =) mum says that she's going to give me the support, financially. so hope that everything goes on well. pray for me girls.... and guys too.

PS: now that exams are over, it's freaking boring cause there's nothing to do. getting my butt up yo head out is such a drag. rather stay home and enjoy!! =) see ya people.

2010-02-19T20:16:00.005+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY! (editted) hehe...

well, let me sum up my 19th birthday. awesome + coolness + loved + surprises + friends + *you* + presents = total awesomecoolness with friends and *you* leading to presents after presents!

18th FEBRUARY - we had our FEB final paper. then classmates threw a mini birthday celebration for me =) THANK YOU GUYSS (and sorry again for leaving halfway through). next, a supposed *surprise* from them, which kinda went wrong due to unforeseen circumstances. bringing me to a dinner, at SAKURA: free buffet dinner, must i add? *loved* so, awesome maddy and sherry and xianfeng bought me this cute dress and HE gave me a box of chocolates with 2 hand made cards, which were totally cutee!! hehe! so, actual birthday ended up awesome too. lets move on to the 19th FEBRUARY next.

19th FEBRUARY - HE gave me a cute white bear for my birthday!!! so cute!!! then, it was a trip to SINGAPORE ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS!! finally!! after ages being deprived from going to the zoo, managed to get a trip down with him!! MY WHITE TIGERS!! the creatures and animals are freakingly cute, humongous, yucky and clever!!! i so love the leopard cat!! steal it for me, would ya??? hehe!! hundred over pictures were taken. BUTTTTTT, most of it were pictures of the animals. i guess you guys wouldn't be interested in that would you??

so to put it to a conclusion for 2010, THINGS WENT PRETTY AWESOME FOR ME =) thanks for all the things planned out for me =)

you people are the best. and i know next year should be even better, ayee??? hehe! you guys know what to do. HE HE HE HE!!

chiao amigos!!

2010-02-12T22:12:00.004+08:00

END OF YEAR 2

today finally marks the end of YEAR 2 in polytechnic. time passes by freakingly fast once you get into polyy. wooots. finally, it ends.

so this means, FINAL YEAR EXAMS are round the corner and not to mention our ITP aka ATTACHMENT!! excited about it, but also not too excited about it. need to wake up early and no skipping of days as and when i feel like it. shessshhh.

hope all goes pretty well for me!!

headed out for awhile with SHERRY then off to meet SEHA for catching ups = BOYS AGAIN!!

2010-02-07T16:02:00.003+08:00

ALLY

managed to get FEB report done yesterday. now, it feels like i got nothing to do when there are tonnes of work to be done. im waiting for BLAW report to be sent to me so that i can work on it more. i want to study my FM but then i just don't feel like studying right now.

now that i got my internet back, i don't know what to do with it. being deprived of it for one week, i think i've already covered it up with all those mid-night internet surfing. =)

oh i realised one thing. ALLY is getting brighter each day! =) she just cant stop bringing smiles to our faces. THE CUTEST BABY ON EARTH I SHALL SAY?! AND IM SO PROUD TO SAY IT OUT LOUD! =) I SIMPLY LOVE HER.

2010-02-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

FRIENDS TURN TO FOE

things went really wrong. i didn't want all that to happen. it was scary. for all of us to actually go through that, i really wonder how we are going to survive when we meet in the future.

things really went off the wrong way. it was never supposed to start like this and end even worst.

honestly, today was a total horror. my eyes are tired from all the tears that flowed. projects are still on hand, but all of us are misunderstood for all the wrong reasons.

it wasn't suppose to end this way. sorry.

i appreciate all the friends who actually stood by me when all this happened. i know i can trust you guys. ILY.

PS: can we not go through this again?

2010-01-30T20:43:00.005+08:00

MOVING

again. we are moving off to a new place. this have been happening for a few times now. well, i guess in time, it will just be a standard routine that i have to live with. mum prefers new environment everytime. but we don't really feel the same way as her.

today's going to be the last day here. tomorrow, we'll be off to a new place. hope that it will be better there.

most of the projects are finally done. =) finally, a SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT. everything went in order except for CONB. gosh. that's the most challenging project i ever got. but we actually managed to get it done by the due date. =))

now, 3 more projects, final year exams and ATTACHMENT. gosh. we will be busy for like, FOREVER? whoever said that polytechnic is a slack, you ought to kill that person.

PS: *ehem* SOMEONE GOT AN IPHONE WITHOUT TELLING ME!!! =P

2010-01-18T23:28:00.005+08:00

MINI AMAZING RACE

today's monday. and its so wonderful that i didn't have classes today! that means im able to work and earn some moo-lahs!!! yippee!!

and i super love the company. cause im always given a one-day events' job. and i hope they'll introduce more to me!!

TODAY'S JOB WAS TO BE A STATION MASTER FOR A MINI AMAZING RACE @ SENTOSA!! easy-money earned. well, the contestants were from SINGAPORE POLICE FORCE; if im not mistaken. they do look fit. so im not sure what's the whole point of the race.

but oh wells. it was alright i guess. at least it gave me a chance to earn easy money!! =))

im friggin' tired now. so im catching the zzzzzs' soon!! PROJECTS/EXAMS ARE GOING TO BE A KILLER!! february is not exactly a good month to be celebrating anything when you've reached this poly stage.

SIGHS!

2010-01-01T22:16:00.011+08:00

2010 SETTING IN

time flies really fast without you realising what you had actually done for the whole of that ONE YEAR. it doesn't really feel like a year has passed by cause this means that i'm actually almost 2 years in POLYTECHNIC now. golllyyy!!

ohs wells. COUNTDOWN to 2010 was suberbly awesome when night time came - though it started off slow. my baobei girllies came down, no matter how late it was to make it for the 2010 countdown. SO I LOVE YOU GIRLS! only with you can we all get crazed up together aye??!!! =)

let's do it again soon, please!!!!

and when all of it ended, we walked all the way from cityhall to bugis - from which, i was totally shagged!!! seriously! i drained all the little energy that was left in me. AND I LOST MY VOICE AGAIN!! haha! cool or whatt. this happened last year too! i think it's a yearly sickness i'm going to get uhhh. pffffttttt.....................

AND OHH. MOST IMPORTANTLY - NOT TO MENTION, PHOTO TIME BEYBEHHHH!!!!

MORE PICTURES IN FACEBOOK!

there are freaking more pictures uh. but i'll upload them when the time comes. cause..... you-know-i-know..

2009-12-23T00:28:00.008+08:00

DAY OUT WITH GIRLFRIENDS

oh yeahh. though its like damn late now, i just can't stop myself from blogging about today. like seriously. kecoh-rable kepe korang!? hahah!! chaos is kicking up in FB right now. =))

though it was just the 3 of us, there was unexpected funn. awesomeness. lucky someone brought a camera along + girls + too much free time = CAM WHORE!!! haha!!

i love you people. you girls just know how to have fun at the right time, SERIOUSLY!! =))

MORE CRAZY PICTURES IN MY FACEBOOK!!!

2009-12-13T19:01:00.005+08:00

ADVANCED CELEBRATION

SURPRISE!! to our littlest sister of them all!! hehe! SHERRY TAN LEE YEE!! we managed to come up with a last minute plan to surprise her BY MAKING A SPECIAL VISIT OVER!! totally unexpected ehhh??? =)

CAKE CUTTING - MONOPOLY - NEW MOON - LATE NIGHT PIZZA = great day out. =)

finally managed to catch the movie - NEW MOON. well, there was more talking then actions. but overall i still love the movie. JACOB is just ........... !!!! =))

holidays are finally here. but i have no idea what i want to do during this holiday. i hope it will be a fun one. =)

2009-11-27T20:46:00.006+08:00

PUBLIC HOLIDAY

SHOPPING SPREE. weird thing was, mum was like "TAKE UH." to the things that we want. rather surprising cause she would usually go "DON'T WANT LARH. WASTE MONEY ONLY." lols. but stupidly, when she was in the mood for a shopping spree, i couldn't find the things that i want. -.-

so in the end, i only managed to get a LACOSTE shoe!! well, i LOVE it so much!! lols!! but, i couldn't get the green FOX pull-over and FOURSKIN top there too. its either there's no exact size i want, or the price is too unreasonable. cause if 1 of us wants it, then all 4 of us would want it as well. POOR MUMMY.

we managed to get shoes instead. LACOSTE for mummy, ADIDAS for sister, VANS for my two brothers. =) well, i guess the two tops i will have to get it using my own money, i guess. sighs.

2009-11-22T23:14:00.005+08:00

BIRTHDAY BOY

we finally celebrated his birthday today! though it was like 3 days late, but i guess things turned out great =). i bet you didn't expect this coming right? well, hope you enjoyed your day with us, JEREMY!! you are finally eighteen!!!

so, we surprised him by luring him to E2MAX and held the short celebration there. from CAKE SMASHING to CAKE EATING COMPETITION to BALLOON POPPING COMPETITION!. =) awesome-ness.

POOL-ed thereafter and finally had our dinner at MAD JACK. thanks for leaving us guys!

so this was our day for the birthday boy. hope you enjoyed the surprise!! =)

2009-11-15T14:58:00.010+08:00

APEC - asia pacific economic cooperation

APEC has finally ended. i thought that after F1, i would no longer need to be holding that idiotic tray in my hands. and yesterday was like F1 all over again. shessshhh. though the whole event was rather slack, that last 2 hours standing there with 6 glasses of drinks on your tray everytime was a killer! haha. my both hands almost numb-ed up. hehe!

oh yeah! and we had 'make-up' artistes to do our hair and make-up. YUCKY! BUN-NED up hair with THICK MAKE-UP! OUCH! soo yucky larh!

so, the IN-CHARGE were slackers too! so the last 15 to 20 minutes or so, we slacked behind 'closed doors'. haha!!

i didn't manage to see the 'big shots' from yesterday. it seems that everything was rather disorganized. so in the end, a few of us didn't manage to catch a glimpse of them.

BEFORE AND AFTER THE WHOLE EVENT!

2009-11-03T23:21:00.003+08:00

TAKING THE FIRST STEP TO CHANGE

i've finally understood the meaning of "IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP".

i need to get that thinking off my mind and finally learn to start to give and take with the people around me. i need to bear in mind that sometimes, things does not always revolve around me, myself and i. it also involves people around me, especially those close to me.

i know friends will be there to guide me through this phase. and i know i can definitely count on you guys to help me too.

and i know i love you guys just for being able to do that. =)

2009-10-27T22:05:00.005+08:00

TEENAGE LIFE TEENAGE DRAMA

school's officially started and this semester just feels like a drag. mann, thinking of coming school is just as tiring as going there each day.

anyways, had a badminton-cum-basketball session with the usuals (MADDY/SHERRY/JEREMY/XIANFENG) again. =) awesome. and now, our bodies are aching and im feeling tired the whole day. but it was all worth it =)

sidetracking, it's just weird to know that it is all happening again when you thought that it will never happen ever again in your life. well, what you can do is avoid it and not to get involved in such situations. enjoy whatever time you have with sweet friends =) and all will go along smoothly!!

haha! and, girls being girls. i think we simply love to think far ahead. like what would happen if.... and what to do if... and what to say if..... haha!! but these are the times that makes our teenage lives interesting and i'll never regret the day sharing fun stuffs with dearie girlfriends throughout the whole night. cause whenever you think about it, it will all be worth it.... =) so might as well make the best of it!

oh yeah. and im freaking addicted to a song titled REPLAY. .... shawty's like a melody in my head that i can't keep out got me singing like NA NA NA NA everyday, like an IPOD stuck on replay!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! got me singing the whole day!

GIRLS GUYS FRIENDS FAMILY

2009-10-20T23:31:00.007+08:00

SCHOOL'S IN

holidays are finally over, and the term starts all over. mann, i can't wait for the next holidays already.

so last week of holidays..............

SATURDAY: supposedly to receive our pay that was 'supposedly' dued

MONDAY: badminton with MADDY/SHERRY/JEREMY/XIANFENG @ jem's crib

WEDNESDAY: tried to enjoy the taste of the nightlife for the first time = TIME TO PARTY!!

FRIDAY: dinner at ION SWENSEN'S with DBA 14 (08/09) after ages of not meeting up. =) no group photo was taken, sadly. =(

SUNDAY: headed out with siblings to get my clothes for school!! =) finally.

and now, i am back to school. sighs.

2009-10-15T17:37:00.010+08:00

(THEY)

FAZZ.STACEY.EFASHA.HANNAH.

yesterday night was an eye-opener.

i realised one thing though.

MY FRIENDS CAN REALLY PARTY THEIR ASSES OFF.

THEY'RE AWESOME.

i was hoping that i could be as daring as them.

hehe.

you guys shook your arses on the dancefloor hard.

sweat it all out.

someone was so high, she kept shouting "HOT HOT HOT!"

- TOTAL AWESOMENESS -

PS: I seriously hate the state of my hair now. damnn.

2009-10-06T00:54:00.006+08:00

HOLIDAYS ARE ALMOST OVER

grr. just the thought of it makes me go..... SIGGHHHHHHSS!! one and half week left! errgghhh.

initial plans for today:

(1) Have lunch with someone before heading for supposedly 'TIRESOME' work

(2) work my butt off till 12 midnight

buttttttt...

(1) well, i did have lunch of course.

(2) ran away from work. and went walking around orchard instead!!! hehe! treat us like crap somemore!! hmmmpphh!!!

well, supposed to be working in ***** HOTEL today. haha! we went there already, changed into their uniforms, shoes = PREPARED. then, they treated us like crap?? so fine, since you guys are so high and mighty, then BYEBYE!! hahaha!!

so we really left! hehe. confirm gonna get a dressing down from the school, but who cares!! haha. and finally, i can collect my pay on the 10th!! the day i've been waiting for since all the hardwork. sadly, my TIP money has been spent on clearing off my bill and dad hasn't sold off my old phone yet. haiyooo daddyyy.... =((((

oh yarr. my stupid extensions came off one by one ever since work that day!! =((((( now my hair looks damn damn short uh! and i hate it. i wanna have that long hair back!!! grrrrr.. i want my hair to be that long!! (points to picture!!!!!))))

2009-09-28T16:30:00.009+08:00

IT FINALLY ENDS!

omgg. i can't believe that i got through the 3 days F1 job!!! first time trying out a BANQUET job, i think it was really quite an experiencing job to have, though the fatigue that we were all faced with too.

SKY SUITE! that was where me, jeremy and sherry got posted. but sadly we were posted to different suites. i think my parents were praying hard for me cause everything actually went so so smoothly! i got the best MANAGER, i got the best SUITE and not forgetting, the best TIP!! hehe!! you guys should know about it.

GATEX COMPANY was the company i had to serve for the whole 3 days. i thought those people didn't appreciate our help, BUT I WAS WRONG!! hehe! you guys rockss!!! =))

by the end of it, i think everything was worth it. it was the experience that i loved the most. =)) and we got the best view from the top. imagine, people paying stupidly for $7000++ per person just to get that suite, and we got to be there. thats total AWESOMENESS.

will i give it a go next year? i hope i will!!! hehe!!

if i do, i would want the same MANAGER again! he rocks. though he looks strict. hehe!!

look at the view. awesome ain't it!??? hehe!! our faces are not clear. but who cares! the background is the most important!! hehe!

2009-09-22T21:23:00.010+08:00

BIRTHDAY GIRL madeline

OUR GROUP PHOTO!! =)))))

hello madeline! i know you will be reading this soon, and here it goes!! lols.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

hope you enjoyed the day with us, though it was just a simple surprise!! =)))

keeping this from you was way way way HARDD!!! lols!!

anyways, i enjoyed celebrating your 18th birthday with you.

2009-09-21T10:45:00.007+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA aidil fitri

wanna wish all my muslim friends SELAMAT HARI RAYA maaf zahir dan batin. well, apologies for anything that i might have done wrong without realising. =)) well, i think you guys should know that i'm not good with this kinda stuff ya. haha! so yeah. enjoy the rest of the raya!!

guess there's going to be more visiting today. here's some pictures we got yesterday.

sidetracking, work's going to be in 4 days time. truthfully, i'm still worried about it. i seriously hope that everything goes smoothly. no butter fingers please.

2009-09-17T00:50:00.003+08:00

CHALET

chalet was alright i guess. started off abit slow, but in the end i think it went okay. we didnt take that much pictures cause i totally forgot about that. haha, wasted.

- catching up

- bowling with peeps

- pillow fights

- drinking water and not allowed to go toilet until someone gives up (in the end, i couldn't take it) haha!!

alright. that was the fun part. the not so fun part was when there was no place to sleep. =(( i was totally shagged and all the best spaces were taken, sadly. haha! tried sleeping on the chair, which was super uncomfortable. then tried sleeping on the floor. was shivering like hell, cause it was damn cold larhh. stupid cough and sore throat still didn't wanna go away, so i ended up sitting outside and almost fell asleep there. pfftt.

everytime i sat somewhere, i literally feel like falling asleep. gosh.

oh yeah. i forgot to add. the place was awesome larhh!! haha! so unexpected. so clean/big/spacious/comfortable!!!! hahah!! nice chalet to be at!!! hahah!!

AWESOME PEOPLE.

2009-09-12T21:51:00.006+08:00

TOUCHED

i was on my way home today, when this song immediately 'caught me' as soon as the radio turned on. i couldn't get the title, but found it on YOUTUBE - thanks YOUTUBE. hehe. oh yeah. and this song, is awesome? cause there's the combination of
THE JONAS BROTHERS/MILEY CYRUS/SELENA GOMEZ/DEMI LOVATO. =)) nice song. nice lyrics.

ain't it great? to achieve something at such young age?? oh yeah. i can tell you that, when i look at this video, im so envious of all of them there. =)) its not anything bad. cause it's just ENVY, not JEALOUSY.

THIS IS THE SONG - SEND IT ON

PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH THE VIDEO.

2009-09-11T18:29:00.007+08:00

CRAZE

okay. i've been staying at home for this whole week, cause mum nagged that i've been heading out alot. well, it's true and i'm tired also. =) so this is going to be my 'rest week'. haha.

well, staying home for the whole week is definitely a bore! so i've been finishing up my time watching movies and clips from youtube. movies for the week were WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE THE MOVIE and ANOTHER CINDERELLA STORY. haha! immature?? but they're nice. =)) so what.

and lately SELENA GOMEZ has been my latest craze. haha! well, these teenage celebrities are lucky aren't they? she's well, as you can say, ALMOST PERFECT?? i love her hair!!! arrrgghhh!!

oh yeah. i've just got a call from TCC like 10 minutes ago, informing that i'm posted to PAN PACIFIC Hotel for my 3 working days!! haha! and SHERRY got the same place too!! cool or what. i hope that all three of us will be working with each other on those dayss!!!! WORK, HERE I COME!!!!!! =)))

2009-09-06T20:59:00.004+08:00

HEADACHE

alright. today was supposed to be a five-man show. in the end we were left with only three - ME.JEM.SHERRY. well, the training was rather alright. but after the overall thing, i still feel unsure and nervy about the whole event. working is fine. it's the holding of the trays with those drinks on it. i didn't know it would feel this nervy. like seriously. sighs.

oh yeah. hidd, i was just plain stupid i guess?? haha!! anyway, it really made my day like seriously!!

SMILE.SMILE.SMILE.

2009-09-05T16:22:00.004+08:00

GIRLS NIGHT OUT

okay. like officially. after how many MONTHS of not meeting up with each other, we finally did yesterday: ELLA, AINI, EFASHA & HIDDIE!!!. everyone was so hyped up about the meet up - reason: been so long since everyone met larh!! duuuhhh.

i thought i couldn't make it. but in the end, i decided to just go ahead. stupid stomach. it's been days and its not going away. im sorry girls. didn't mean to spoil the mood yesterday. but i know you girls enjoyed the KARAOKE-ING thing so much! haha. if only i had the mood to join the singing and laughter. =)

oh yar. and that place, it's ubber scary when its night time. as soon as i got out from the place, people were lurking around - kinda scary. with that look, that attitude and the place. just imagine walking there by yourself one day. pffft.

and i wonder where most of the pictures and videos are at.

PS: i think baking is sorta fun after all!! =))

2009-09-04T23:43:00.005+08:00

JOB HUNTING

okay. for the past few days, we've been job hunting for the holidays. went down for interview for TOPSHOP on yesterday, and TCC for today. =)

sudden piercing pain of the stomach has been continuing for the past 3 days. gosh. it's really painful. let me tell you this. everything just seems off.

temperature hit a sudden 39.3 yesterday night. and after i got home today, guess what my mum said? it went something like "you faked that you are sick just to avoid fasting then head out till midnight. you've been coming home late for these few days uh. don't too much uh." blabla. standard nagging from mums.

what really made me angry was that, I WAS LIKE FREAKING HAVING FEVER YESTERDAY NIGHT, and she couldn't be bothered to ask how i was. and now, she accuses me for faking sickness? one word - NICE.

it's really a blessing to know that i can survive on my own.

WHATEVER.

2009-09-03T00:55:00.007+08:00

FINALLY

okay. exams are officially over. and now, i think i need to search for jobs. not desperately looking for one. but if an opportunity comes, why not give it a try. anws, going for TOPSHOP interview at VIVO tomorrow. hmm. at first, i was happy for it, but when i thought about starting work as a sales associate again, omg. it was rather hard to adapt to working lifestyle - to be patient, hardworking and bear with all the nonsense that customers gives you.

oh god. it's like 12.58am now. im sleepy. yet i don't feel like going to sleep. now that exams are over, i'm not really sure of how im going to spend my holidays - due to the fasting month, moodswings are of no guarantees. sudden fatigue and stomachaches will suddenly appear and disappear again. ggrrrrrrr.

another 2 and a half weeks left = 18 days left. =))

oh yarr!! you see the bear on the left?!! it's finally a "white bear" again!! hehe. if you get what i mean. thank you auntie!! hehe. it smells nice too!!! hehehe. i so love bearie!!!

"to be there when one is feeling lonely. knowing that trust can be placed onto you."

2009-08-31T22:26:00.003+08:00

ONE MORE TIME

FMA paper was, hmmm, quite manageable than i thought. MR is left, and finally everything will be over. yesssssaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!

okay. managed to get a 'BAJU KURUNG' for this years' raya. =). simple. not too keen in getting another one as i don't really think i will be celebrating raya as much as i did last time.

.fazzylah.falizzah.faslinda.fazalisa.

PS: can we just talk like we used to last time? what actually happened in between? since when did we become like 'total strangers'? could you or anyone tell me? everything is the opposite of what it is suppose to be. i enjoyed talking to you the last time. and im pretty sure it will still be the same now. =))

2009-08-30T14:42:00.004+08:00

SOCCER

finally caught the full match of MANCHESTER UNITED for this season. =))

MAN UTD 2 - 1 ARSENAL

awesome match.

one thing missing though.

CRISTIANO RONALDO.

yeah. it feels so much different watching a soccer match without him.

GRRRRRR.

oh yeah, and after 2.10 in the morning, i managed to catch a few minutes of REAL MADRID vs DEPORTIVO (or sth2).

sooo not a fan of SPANISH LEAGUE.

RONALDO was there. but it's as though he lacked something. tsk tsk.

WASTED.

oh yeah. my sis, me, my lil' bro are like addicted to this song titled 'ONE TIME'. yeah. the one that my blog is playing right now. =)) nicee. JUSTIN BIEBER is sucha cutie.

FMA.FMA.FMA.FMA.FMA.

it's sorta like FMA madness now. been trying to get it into my head. it did. but then, it feels as though it didn't. gooshhh. friggin' 3 more days left; before TOTAL FREEDOM.

as much as i want to study FMA now, i can't. been trying it out from like 11 in the morning. goshh. and now, i ended up browsing for new songs and blogging my time away.

SLACKER.

2009-08-29T00:17:00.004+08:00

CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHES

darn. headed to vivo in the afternoon. omg. i fell in love with A NUMBER of clothes there!! errrgghhh! beautiful beautiful lovely lovely clothes. grrrrr.

hope mum keeps her promise to go shopping this sunday. if not huh, ...... i'd rather not talk about it. hehehe.

PS: sometimes, you people just get on my nerves freaking alot. stop with all those 'MISSES' BS can? do not just TALK THE TALK. but do WALK THE WALK too. words are easier said than done. prove it rather than just repeating craps on and on.

PEACE.

2009-08-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

UP the movie

movie-ed again with madeline, sherry, xianfeng & jeremy. and as childish as the movie sounds, it was rather hilarious plus cute. =) yeah. it was a nice show anyways. worth the money, i guess. RUSSELL is damn cute!! so round, so short, so talkative!! hehe!

oh yeah. and my QA paper. well, it was quite alright i guess. my brain did went blank for a moment. stupid flu and cough. nice timing to arrive. blllleeaaahhh!!!!

FMA paper is up next. the challenge of all challenge. errrgghhh.

2009-08-24T15:27:00.005+08:00

SICK

it's freaking irritating to get sick when all the major exams are just right around the corner. darn it. my nose is like a never ending flow of 'water' tap, fillinh piles and piles of tissues into the rubbish bin. pffft. it's superbly irritating. please. i feel like dying nowwww.

on a side note, i guess i was thinking too much into things. =) let's not waste any more time cause the outcome is definitely quite obvious. what more am i asking for? another SAME/DISAPPOINTING 'outcome' to hope for? suck it up please.

and hey you. i told you that you'll get to see your face here today!! haha!! it's just going to be a one-day 'special'... hehehe.